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in love with hymns... [30 Nov 2009|07:10pm] I lift mine eyes; the cloud grows thin; I see the blue above it; And day by day this pathway smoothes Since first I learned to love it: The peace of Christ makes fresh my heart, A fountain ever springing: All things are mine since I am His— How can I keep from singing? genuine.

Life is for loving [08 Oct 2009|12:36pm] [ mood | hopeful ] "So this is my prayer: that your love will flourish and that you will not only love much but well. Learn to love appropriately. You need to use your head and test your feelings so that your love is sincere and intelligent, not sentimental gush. Live a lover's life, circumspect and exemplary, a life Jesus will be proud of: bountiful in fruits from the soul, making Jesus Christ attractive to all, getting everyone involved in the glory and praise of God." genuine.

then sings my soul... [29 Jul 2009|01:19pm] I'm SO happy. No matter what is going on, despite what complaints I might have on the daily, the beauty that surrounds me is enough to be joyful about. This world is truly beautiful on so many levels, and good people really DO exist. My heart can't help but swell up with praise when I think about it. Thank You for loving me in the way that You do, for You've shown me that the gift is in loving...not being loved in return. Feeling my heart ache with love for someone, regardless of how they feel about me, I get a glimpse of how You feel about me. Oh the delight I find in calling You my best friend! 10%| genuine.

[25 Jun 2009|06:04pm] perpetually confused, but always learning. such is life, and i love it. 10%| genuine.

[28 Apr 2009|05:25pm] stop to smell the roses. it really makes all the difference! genuine.

i'm scared to death that i'll never find a me that's best [28 Jan 2009|10:23am] man i'm so frustrated. everyone keeps asking me what i want to do with my future. not like casual making-conversation asking me, but like sit-down, let's talk about it asking me. i swear it's happened to me 3 times in just the last two weeks, and it seriously makes me want to cry. i don't know what i want to do! i'm almost 24 and it's embarrassing to say that. why don't i know what i want to do? i'm really trying to figure it out. is it because i'm really not good at anything? is it because i just lack confidence? or is because i can do anything, and i just can't choose? i really don't know the answer to any of those questions. it makes me feel so lost. i definitely don't doubt that God has a plan for my life, but i also know that part of that plan is up to me. He's not just going to hand me something while i'm sitting here idle. i need to start making steps in a certain direction, but man, how the heck am i supposed to know what direction to start heading in? i feel like everyone knows what they are good at, or at least what they want to do and how to get good at it. i have no idea what the hell i'm good at OR what i want to do. i mean, i know one thing for sure...i want to do something that helps people, but geez that's so broad. that's like every profession i can think of. stephen told me to choose what i think would do the MOST good. great advice, but i still don't know! all i know is time is ticking and i better figure something out fast, i REFUSE to make another post like this years from now. 30%| genuine.

[03 Jan 2009|05:19pm] i want to move so bad. i know it's not going to cure anything, not that i have any serious problems out here or anything...i'm just really aching for a change of scenery and maybe a few new faces. too bad it's like not even an option. happy new year. 20%| genuine.

Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness [29 Dec 2008|07:37pm] i've been realizing lately that i'm pretty much just all about me. even when i think i'm not being about me. putting myself down and getting upset with other people because they're not being the way I want them to be, is just as selfish as if i were praising myself. when i walk into a room and i'm worried what everyone is thinking about me, it's all about me. when i flake on someone because i'm not 'ready" and i feel ugly, i'm only concerned with myself. when someone unintentionally hurts my feelings, and i just stop talking to them completely because i'm uncomfortable, i'm only thinking about myself. it's so wrong. that's not the person i want to be. God helped me come to my senses this weekend when He reminded me what real friends are. the kind of friend i want to be. He showed me what someone looks like that lets Him shine through them. i want to be beautiful like that. from the inside out. more of You & less of me, please. 20%| genuine.

i see it now [10 Dec 2008|02:12pm] sometimes the real blessing is in God saying "No". genuine.

Look what You've done for me...Your blood has set me free [09 Nov 2008|01:33pm] [ mood | jubilant ] It's not a question of what You can do for me... but what can I do for You, my Lord? 20%| genuine.

[04 Nov 2008|02:28pm] i can't wait for everyone to take down their prop 8 signs. i'm so sick of looking at them. driving up my hill, every other house has a "yes on prop 8" sign. most houses have more than one. in fact, one house has 7 "yes on 8" signs in their front yard. 7!!! like is that really necessary? come on people... the other day, driving in my neighborhood, passing all the "yes on 8" signs...i was just thinking to myself, "how would a gay person be feeling right now? what would they be thinking as they were driving up the hill passing all these signs?" it's like, have your opinion, that's fine...but let's step outside of our own feelings once in a while and consider someone else's... 10%| genuine.

twenty-three! [29 Jun 2008|09:08am] this last month has been amazing. i think mainly because i had an attitude adjustment and i've been focusing on maintaining a positive outlook on life. life really is amazing, i mean...if you choose to look at it that way. i realized that in everything you have a choice. i've chosen to love life...and i feel like i've discovered this amazing secret. sure i may not be a victim of really ugly circumstances...on the whole, i guess i have many reasons to be happy...but nobody's life is perfect, and even those who seemingly "have it all" aren't necessarily happy and satisfied with life. people will find any reason to be stressed out or depressed, but i feel like i've finally grasped what Paul meant in Philippians when he said "I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want". life is so beautiful, and that's all God wants us to see. Jesus came so that we may "have life, and have it more abundantly". there's so much more to life than just living. i'm just so glad that this concept has finally become real to me...i've heard it my whole life, but now i'm actually living it and life couldn't be better. so much weight is taken off of you when you truly realize what really matters in this life. now my only desire is to experience this beauty in all it's fullness...and hopefully someday someone will join me. 20%| genuine.

it's not funny anymore [28 Apr 2008|01:09pm] my parents treat our cats like they are their grandchildren, its gross. they even joke about it all the time. i better hurry up and get married and have kids...i'm getting concerned. 30%| genuine.

victim [21 Apr 2008|08:19pm] it's funny when you try so hard and want so bad to be different...and then you wake up and realize that you're just like everybody else. haha. you just have to laugh. genuine.

[26 Feb 2008|04:35pm] How people can deny the fact that the last 8 years have been a COMPLETE disaster, is just beyond me. I feel like I need to clear some things up. Just because you're Christian, does not mean you have to be Republican. Just because your parents are Republican, does not mean you have to be Republican. And just because a candidate "claims" to be a Christian, doesn't necessarily mean they are the best person for the job... People really need to inform themselves, open up their eyes, and realize who is really for their best interest, and the bettering of humanity. Please vote wisely. 40%| genuine.

"he likes to live dangerously, always driving around with the gas tank on E" [17 Jan 2008|04:13pm] So i got that notice in the mail saying that my license was suspended as of the 8th...but just a few days before i got that notice, i wrote letters to the courts with payments attached...so they hadn't gone through yet. i checked last week and the money was debited from my account, so they accepted my payments...but everyone has been telling me that your license stays suspended until you pay the tickets in full. naturally i've been too irresponsible to follow up on this, so ive just assumed that my license was suspended...continued driving though, of course. well...yesterday i got pulled over again hahaha. man. same spot i got one of the other tickets, and for the same thing! i freaked out, prayed to God that i wouldn't be arrested or my car wouldn't be sent to impound...the cop came back with a ticket and sent me on my way. so i don't really know whats going on now, but yeah...another ticket! so awesome. 10%| genuine.

[09 Jan 2008|12:07pm] So I'm ridiculously in debt. I have a crappy job I make no money on. No one else wants to hire me. I have a suspended license. I get yelled at by my parents almost everyday. But life is good. Life is soo good. Because despite all of this, God really is good, always. Life is just so much bigger than we realize. 70%| genuine.

it's a cycle [18 Dec 2007|10:56am] man, i love nice people. they're so rare these days. just one simple act of kindess will totally make my day. i had a problem with the bank again, and i HATE dealing with bank people more than anyone, it's like a prerequisite for them to have no heart...i swear they are the coldest people. So all weekend I'd been dreading this call, but today, a nice young gentlemen by the name of Desmond assisted me and totally made my day. its weird actually, the first time i called, i spoke with a man named John, whom after me explaining my whole situation ended up hanging up on me...When i called back, i got Desmond, before he could even say anything i was kinda rude because I was already pissed that I had been hung up on, but in a cheery voice he said "What can I help you with? I'm here to help you in any way i can, just give me the short version of what happened and i'll do my best to make sure you're taken care of" i was already taken aback. he then went out of his way to make sure every problem that occurred was taken care of in the best possible way. instead of transferring me to other departments like bank representatives usually do, he called them for me and explained the situation and got it taken care of. i mean, even just the tone of his voice completely reversed my mood. I was so excited at how kind and helpful he was that I stayed on hold for 15 minutes to speak to a supervisor to make a nice comment about him. Thank God for people like that. I can now go about my day positively, doing my best to make sure i'm kind to others. 30%| genuine.

waiting... [23 Oct 2007|05:49pm] It's got to be too good to be true... genuine.

[25 Sep 2007|05:08pm] “Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you." William A Ward It's recently become pretty profound to me the importance of encouragement. It really makes all the difference in the world. I look at my best friends. The reason I consider them my best friends, is because they're constantly encouraging, building me up... and because they are encouraging, it makes me want to do the same for them, which results in a friendship that's continually blossoming into something truly beautiful. It doesn't get much better. I think about my job. Depending on who I work with, the day can be fun and productive, or it can be the worst day of my life. When I work with a certain manager, I know it's going to be a good day, simply because of the little things he says..."Great job with that sale" "I noticed you're really working hard today, and I want to let you know I appreciate it" "Keep up the good work". It makes me want to do the most, and the best I possibly can on my job that day to make HIM look good as a manager, because he takes the time to give me a little encouragement and make sure I'm having a good day. I look at my parents. They recently celebrated their 37th wedding anniversary. They work so well together because they are constantly encouraging and helping each other grow in the best way possible. My dad told me the "secret" to their relationship. He said what makes a relationship work, is being the best you can possibly be for the other person, and them doing the same for you. Makes sense. Anyway, my point is...I think that if we could all be a little less selfish and a little more encouraging, life would be so much better. So, take some time to encourage. 20%| genuine.

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